外科醫師之路有你有我/ Road to cardiac surgeon

『中文版本』
「人因夢想而偉大」每個人心中都有著一張夢想藍圖，或許在築夢的過程中被人嘲笑，或許面對困難時臨陣脫逃，或許對於未來徬徨無助，但只要心中懷抱著夢想而不輕言放棄便能期待成功的那天到來。圓夢之路，過程難免曲折，卻也韻味十足。

從小到大，醫師一直是我夢寐以求的理想，不僅是因爲家人皆是醫師而從小耳濡目染，更多的是希望總有一天能像日劇中的主角運用自己的醫術拯救無數可貴的性命。為了達成這個夢想，國高中的時間總是在書海中度過， 犧牲了許多課後時間也荒廢了朋友之間的友誼，不過我深知這是必須經歷的過程，唯有不斷的學習才能有實現夢想的一天。

時光匆匆，轉眼已是醫學生，然而這僅僅是踏出夢想的第一步，前方有更多的困難等待我克服。繁重的課業壓力時常讓我喘不過氣，每當夜闌人靜之時我總是懷疑自己當初進入醫學系的初衷。
「我真的適合成為醫師嗎? 我有能力掌握病人的生死嗎?」許多自我否定的聲音佔據我的內心，好幾次我曾經想放棄這個伴隨我許久的夢想，但想起曾經的付出與努力我還是毅然決然地在這充滿荊棘藤蔓的醫學之路上苟延殘喘。

在繁忙的課業之餘，我接觸了許多日本醫療劇也時常去日本旅行，看著劇中主角腥風血雨,意氣風發的生活不免令人血脈僨張，也讓我對外科醫師充滿著無限的憧憬及想像，夢想著總有一天也能站在手術台上挽救病人的生命。除此之外，我也對於「日本」這個國家懷有著一絲絲夢想，希望我有一天能在日本生活並了解社會的真實面，不僅僅是個遊客更是個移民者。

儘管我已經在日本旅遊不下數十次了，北起北海道下至沖繩處處皆有我的足跡。到日本旅遊總是美好的，歷史悠久的神社、古蹟、四季不同的優美景色、日本人有禮貌的服務態度等，一想到能到日本旅遊就讓人興奮不已。我拾起了荒廢已久的日文課本，希望總有一天能與日本人流暢的交談、希望能實現在日本留學的夢想、更希望藉由日文能了解更多不同的文化。轉眼已經是大學二年級的學生，我希望能在畢業之前考取N1日文檢定的資格，進而能在日本念大学院，開始我在日本的職場生活。

日本為世界上數一數二的醫療強國，尤其在心臟外科及神經外科領域更為傑出，這也是為什麼我對於日本充滿著無限的憧憬及想像，我在心中暗自期許我能成為其中的佼佼者，希望能接受這些知識並造福更多患者。

為了完成這些夢想，我選擇利用課餘時間繼續學習日文，不僅讓我能在高壓的課業環境之下暫時解脫，也調劑了我的身心靈。雖然時常需要應付課業上的壓力以及日文學習進度的壓力而忙得焦頭爛額，不過這樸實無華且枯燥的生活卻也使我更加的自律。對我而言，日文早已不是個學科，而更像是個有趣而實用的工具，每天規律的學習日文早已成為家常便飯，雖然我現在的日文水準還不甚理想，不過我相信透過不斷的努力總有ㄧ天能達成我的目標。

剛開始自學約莫半年的我，逐漸能看得懂日劇中的對白、也能嘗試用不太流暢的日文與日本的朋友溝通，雖然時常雞同鴨講不過倒也是一番趣味。去年無意間瀏覽到Amazing Talker 這個網路教學平台，起初對於這個平台我確實沒什麼興趣，因為時常在網站上看到「自學日文ㄧ年通過日檢Ｎ1」等等如此“聳動”的心得分享讓我覺得日文的學習應該十分容易，進而想要靠自學通過日文檢定，然而現實總是與理想大相徑庭。初級的日文確實很容易掌握，不過接觸到更多文法、句型時卻讓我望之卻步，讓我想起當初幼稚園時學習英文的恐懼：一門我已經學習十幾年卻依然無法突破IELTS及TOEFL考試的科目。因此我毅然決然的開始在Amazing Talker上尋找適合我的老師，希望藉由老師的指導能讓我學習日文時更有效率及成績。

嘗試與許多老師上課之後，我選擇繼續與エリー老師一同上課，與其說她是位老師不如說她是位很好的日文學習與陪伴者。在課堂上與她共同學習不僅不會感到太多的壓力更能從中獲得許多日文的各種語法知識，課後之餘老師也會關心學生的學習進度及學習狀況，真的很謝謝老師的指導。課堂上雖然我常常犯相同的文法錯誤、拼字錯誤、老師也依然不厭其煩的指導我，讓我不斷地能在錯誤中學習，希望在我通過Ｎ1考試之前都能繼續與他一起學習。

成為日本的外科醫師之路上需要的是更多的努力與堅持。煩雜的英文原文書、日文原文書都是必備的工具，雖然以我目前的日文程度無法了解高深莫測的“日文醫學原文書籍”，不過我依然會繼續堅持這個夢想，每天持續努力不懈的學習，總有一天能達成自己的目標。德國著名詩人歌德曾說：「生命里最重要的事情是要有個遠大的目標，並藉助才能與堅毅來完成它」不放手直到夢想到手的精神值得我們所學習。我永遠不會忘了那個兒時的夢想—成為一名傑出的外科醫師，外科醫師之路有你有我！彼此共勉之。

『English version』
“Men are great for the dreams they have” Everyone has a dream blueprint in their hearts. Maybe they are laughed at in the process of building their dreams, they may flee in the face of difficulties, or they may hesitate for the future. Never give up and look forward to the day of success. The road to dream realization is unavoidable, but it is also full of charm.

Since childhood, becoming a cardiac surgeon is my dream. Not only because my family members are doctors so I have been fascinated by them since I was a kid, but likewise I hope that one day I can use my medical skills to save countless precious lives. In order to achieve this dream, I always spend my time in tones of books since I was a student. I have sacrificed a lot of after-school time and the friendship between friends. However, I know that this is a process that must be experienced, “A dream don’t become reality through magic; it takes determination, sweat, and hard work.” this is what I believe in my life.

Time flies in a blink of an eye, I am already a medical student, but this is only the first step to fulfill my dream, and there are more difficulties waiting for me to overcome. The pressure of heavy schoolwork often makes me breathless. Whenever the night is quiet, I always doubt my original intention to enter the Department of Medicine. “Am I really suitable to be a doctor? Am I capable of mastering the life and death of patients?” Many self-denying voices occupy my heart. Several times I wanted to give up this dream that has been with me for a long time, but I think of the efforts that I have made still resolutely lingered on this medical road full of thorns and vines.

Apart from busy schoolworks, I have come into contact with many Japanese medical dramas and travel to Japan from time to time. Watching the bloody and spirited life of the protagonist in the drama is inevitably bloody, and it also makes me full of infinite vision and imagination for surgeons, dreaming that one day I can stand on the operating table and save the patient’s life. In addition, I also have a slight dream about the country “Japan”. I hope that one day I can live in Japan and understand the real face of society, not only a tourist but an immigrant.

Although I have traveled in Japan no less than ten times, my footprints are everywhere from Hokkaido to Okinawa. Traveling to Japan is always beautiful. There are shrines with a long history, historic sites, beautiful scenery in different seasons, and the courteous service attitude of Japanese people. It is always exciting to travel in Japan. I picked up the Japanese textbooks that have been abandoned for a long time. I hope that one day I can have a smooth conversation with Japanese people, I hope I can fulfill my dream of studying in Japan, and I hope to learn more about different cultures through Japanese. In a blink of an eye, I am already a second-year university student. I hope I can get the N1 Japanese test qualification before graduation, so that I can go to graduate school in Japan and start my working life in Japan.

What is more, Japan is one of the best countries with high medical standards in the world, especially in the field of cardiac surgery and neurosurgery. This is why I am full of infinite vision and imagination for Japan. I secretly hope that I can become one of the graduate student in Japan, accept those knowledge and benefit more patients.

In order to accomplish my dreams, I chose to use my spare time to continue studying Japanese, which not only allowed me to temporarily relieve myself from the high-pressure academic environment, but also adjusted my body and mind. Although I often have to deal with the pressure of schoolwork and the pressure of Japanese learning progress, but this unpretentious and boring life also makes me more self-disciplined. To me, Japanese is no longer a subject, but more like an interesting and practical tool. Learning Japanese regularly every day has long been routine. Although my current level of Japanese is not very satisfactory, but I won’t give up learning Japanese, It is precisely the possibility of realizing a dream that makes life interesting.

I started to study by myself for about half a year, and gradually understand the dialogues in Japanese dramas, and I can also try to communicate with Japanese friends in a less fluent Japanese. Although I can’t get their points sometimes, it is still a lot of fun. Last year, I accidentally browsed the Amazing Talker online teaching platform. At first, I was really not interested in this platform, because I often saw Self-Study Japanese One Year to Passed JLPT N1 and other such sensational experience sharing on the website. I think Japanese learning should be very easy, and I want to pass the Japanese test by self-study. However, the reality is always very different from the ideal. Basic Japanese is really easy to master, but when I come into contact with more grammar and sentence patterns, it makes me daunted. It reminds me of my fear of learning English in kindergarten: I have been studying for more than ten years but still can’t break through IELTS and TOEFL. Therefore, I resolutely started to find a suitable teacher for me on Amazing Talker, hoping that the guidance of the teacher would make me more efficient and effective in learning Japanese.

After trying to having class with many teachers, I chose to continue to class with Teacher Ellie. She is not only a teacher but also a good Japanese learning and companion. Studying with her in class will not only not feel too much pressure, but likewise gain a lot of Japanese grammar knowledge. After class, the teacher will also care about the student learning progress and learning situation. Thank you for your guidance! Although I often make the same grammatical mistakes and spelling mistakes in class, the teacher still guides me tirelessly, so that I can continue to learn from the mistakes. I hope I can continue studying with her before I pass the N1 exam.

What is needed to become a Japanese surgeon is more effort and persistence. The complicate English original books and Japanese original books are all necessary tools. Although I cannot understand the inscrutable Japanese medical original books with my current Japanese level, I will continue to stick to this dream and continue to study hard every day until the day that I can achieve my goals. The famous German poet Goethe once said:“The important thing in life is to have a great aim, and the determination to attain it”, the spirit of not letting go until the dream comes true is worth learning. I will never forget that childhood dream-to become an outstanding surgeon, great hopes make everything great possible.

Thank you for your concentration, Best wish!